Milestones

I think every woman at one point or another is involved with someone that they probably know they need to walk away from. It just took me a really long time to finally sever that relationship, but I managed to do it.

1 month and 8 days ago... yes I'm still keeping track. One of my co-workers tells me I need to stop but I think there are a number of significant landmarks that I need to pass before I can finally say that I will never ever speak to this person again.

1. One week - Check!
2. One month - Check!
3. Three months - April 20, 2012
4. The Month of August (because both he and I have birthdays that month and I will be tempted to wish him a happy birthday)
5. The beginning of football season
6. One year - January 20, 2013

Once I've gotten past those I can pretty much guarantee that this person will be out of my life forever. Sure I might look back on it once in a while, but not with any sort of fondness.

So much Hotness

I have a co-worker who is not really into sports so I started to introduce her to the various very fit, attractive athletes in the sports world. We call this "Hottie of the Day".

It seemed like a good idea at the time but now we're 3 weeks in and I'm having trouble both coming up with someone each day and remembering who I've already done. It also doesn't help that I am pretty familiar with most of the hot hockey players, a good number of the football players, I know where to go to get my soccer player fix, but I am extremely fuzzy on basketball and baseball.

Any thoughts? Is this something I should institute for the blog too?

So much catch up

so yes I've been a bad blogger lately. There are several reasons for this, mostly it comes down to just not being in the mood to write. But I think it's time to start again .

So here we go:

Love life: Broke up with my boyfriend in November. It's sad but there were a lot of confounding factors; distance, unresolved feelings for someone else, occasionally feeling smothered by his caring. He's still a huge part of my life just not in a romantic sense. In fact he's coming to visit later this week. Yay!

Family: They're good. Went home for Christmas got to see everyone. No nieces or nephews, no engagements. I talk to my mom at least a couple times a week, she freaks out if I don't. My younger brother and I text every couple of weeks. The other two brothers I pretty much don't hear from.

Work: Work is great. Busy but great. I love my job, I love my co-workers, it pays the bills, but it's exhausting. I'm very much looking forward to this 4 day weekend I'm taking to accommodate my friend's visit.

Travel: I went to Phoenix in October, other than that it's just been to Winnipeg to see my family.  I'm hoping to go to Washington, D.C. late this spring. I'm a history geek so I love museums and for some odd reason national capitals tend to have a ton of them.

Fantasy Football: Finished 3rd in regular season. Lost my best receiver the last week of the regular season so I was screwed going into the playoffs. Lost my 2nd round matchup by 1 point. 1 measly point.

Real Football: As a Colts fan this season blew chunks. Honestly I knew Manning was good, but who knew the entire team would implode without him. On the upside Tim Tebow.

And on that Tebow note: This is fantastic. Tebow as a centaur is hilarious.

Okay that's enough for now I think.  I'll try to keep this thing much more up to date.

How do people manage?

I am so stressed. I have so much work to do to the point that even though I am supremely organized I can't stay on top of things, nor can I figure out where to start on some things.

It just all becomes a big ball of overwhelming. And working from home isn't going to cut it. I tend to get distracted, and lately because I'm so tired all I want to do is sleep. At least in the office I push past the tiredness and keep on working.

Any advice on how to juggle things?

Cutting back

I recently returned from a trip to see my boyfriend in Phoenix. The trip itself was wonderful. The flights on the other hand not quite so much. Due to connecting flights I was in 4 different airports in the 5 days between the time I left and the time I got back. That also means I took 4 different planes. I had difficulty buckling in every single one. Though granted it was a little more difficult in the very small regional planes.

So that leads me to my first cut back. I'm putting myself on a diet. So far it has been very difficult. It was going really well trying to eat just a little less than normal. Although I have to admit I would get a major case of the hungries around 9 pm. Then last week happened.

Let's just say last week was a total disaster. I had done really well the week before so I cut back my calorie budget to lose 1.5 lbs per week. Well that was a mistake. I was falling more and more behind each day. But today starts a new budget week so I'm going to try to stick with that.

The other part that I'm cutting back on is spending. I'm not really used to having to live within a budget. I've always been in a situation where I made more money than I spent so it was never a big deal. Spend what you need/want and tuck the rest away for later. Well this last year has been a bit of a wake up call for me. I've definitely overspent what I've made. So I've had to put a budget in force. The first thing is to track spending this month and cut a little bit. First went the cable, my beautiful, beautiful cable. I insisted on keeping my Super Sports pack though. As good as the Lions and the Bills have been this year I can imagine facing the NFL season without it. It also includes NHL centre ice, which kind of makes up for losing TSN.

I'll keep you updated with my progress.

Big meeting today, no sleep last night

Okay no sleep is a little strong I got a solid 4 hours.

Today I have a meeting with senior management at my company which will either result in me getting paid more money, or moving back to Manitoba to move back in with my parents. In the end it just costs way more to live here than I had anticipated and I've been drawing out of my savings and going into debt in order to pay my bills. I have worked really hard at getting better after being off work for 2 years with illness and have been walking a tight rope of living a high enough quality of life to stay health and paying for it.

I'm against this whole occupy Wall Street thing but its hard to understand how a person can have a full time job which is well above minimum wage and still not be able to pay their bills. I should also note that I don't have children or a car, so it's not like I live extravagantly. I do live alone, but shouldn't a full time job allow you to do that?

I don't know maybe I'm spoiled. But I need to pay off my debt and I'm not sure I see another way.

You know you're old when...

Ah yes, September is upon us. You know how I know? The students have returned. And you know how I know I'm getting old? Because it's 11 o'clock on a Saturday night and while the university kids are waiting at the bus stop to go out for the night, I have just returned from my evening's activities.

Now to get a good night's rest in anticipation of the first Sunday of football season. Speaking of which, I purchased NFL Sunday ticket, which means I get any game I want for the next month. It's on a month to month basis so I may or may not continue with it, depending how much use I actually get out of it.

My boyfriend is so amazing

I know it's been a while. So I'm sorry for that. But it's time to start posting again.

First of all my boyfriend and I just celebrated our 6 month anniversary last month. It was nice to have him there for the occasion. Secondly it's my birthday in 2 days, so he sent me a card (and a letter) in the mail because he forgot to bring it with him. Before I tell you what the card said let me also tell you that until I got home from work yesterday and had a 2 hours video chat with him I was about 80% sure that our relationship (or at least the romantic part) was over.

But the minute I read this card I started crying. I know it was just a Hallmark card, but I also know that it echoed a lot of the things that he tells me or has told me in the past. So here's what the card said.

Everyday, I write you love letters in my mind.
But for some reason, when I'm with you,
 I can't seem to find the right words to tell you what's in my heart.
I think of you every single day and discover something about you that makes me love you even more.
But when you're together, I get caught up in the moment and I forget everything I've wanted to tell you.
But on your birthday, I want you to know that even though sometimes the words fail me -
in my heart I write you love letters everyday.
Happy Birthday.

Then of course he added his own little personal note about how much he loves me and that he'll be thinking about me on my birthday.

As it stands, relationship wise, there are still some things that he and I need to work out. But we had a long talk last night and I think we're on a good path now.

disappearance without warning

My life is just so out of control these days. Rather than talking about what is going on in my life through my blog I've been largely internalizing it. Trust me, this is for the best. So for now I'm putting the blog on pause, hopefully I'll be back soon.

So it's all muscle stiffness

I have been feeling absolutely terrible the past couple of weeks. So bad in fact that on a number of occasions I have been close to packing up all of my stuff and moving back home. I've had headaches everyday for weeks. I've had to leave work on a number of occasions. I've gone for massages and they've helped a little but never really managed to break the cycle. I even talked to the head of my company (it's a small company), and told him that I may need to take some time off for medical reasons.

But today I decided to go and sit in the sauna in my building for a half hour and hope that I would be able to sweat out some toxins or something and start to feel a little better. And wow did it ever work. I'm not going to say that I'm 100% better because I'm not, there are definitely some other things going on. But today is the first time in a long time that I felt like I actually had energy to do things. I even did a few reps on the weight machine.