Sometimes you've just got to let go

A wise woman once said:

"Don't talk to him. I know it hurts now, but could you ever truly be friend, or would you just always hope for something more. I've done the friend route lots. It never works out. Just my two cents."

If only I had heeded her advice at the time I probably wouldn't feel the way I do now. She was right the friends thing just didn't work out. Not because I was hoping for something more, I got over that but because as we moved on with our lives I realized that he wasn't the amazing guy I thought he was. Turns out he's kind of a jerk. And so it was time to cut him loose. It still hurts and I feel pretty terrible right now. But I know deep down it was the right thing to do.

It's fast approaching

Alright it's been 6 days since I had my wisdom teeth out and while I'm still in a little bit of pain it's much better today.

Now I have to go about all of my business to get ready for the big move and my new job. I know I haven't talked about this much yet so here's the whole story.

As you know I've been off work for quite some time with illness. While I was away apparently there were some scary times at my workplace and there was a whole departmental restructuring. In some ways I'm glad that I missed all of that, but at the same time I got lost in the shuffle. I was terminated. End of story there. They say it wasn't due to performance but come on I hadn't been there in over a year so while I was a good employee they just decided they didn't need me.

Anyways I started to feel better my doctor and I discussed going back to work somewhere else, so I started looking for something. I found a position that I really wanted and I applied. I had no idea that I would even get an interview since I wasn't the ideal candidate but I guess I was good enough. I had a phone interview the day before I found out I had lost my job. And then within an hour of my meeting with my former employer I got a call asking if I would come out for an interview.

So I flew out 3 days later, they offered me the job and here I am packing and preparing for a new career. I start in 3 weeks! Which means I have to say goodbye to all of my Winnipeg friends before I go. I've already started the process a little bit, had a few farewell lunches and what not. But over the next 2 weeks I'm going to have a bunch of them. I'll try to see as many as I can when I'm back for holidays and to see my folks. But there won't be much time for that for a while.

Wish me luck!

That's What Friends Are For

I'm starting to do my goodbye lunches since I will be moving soon to start my new job. Oh I neglected to mention that I have a new job? Oopps. Well actually that was kind of intentional since I didn't want to say anything until things were all settled with my old job. But it looks like that's been done now so now I can talk about it a little bit. But that's not the point of this post.

This post is about having wonderful friends. See I went for lunch today with a former classmate and the co-worker. We talked about the job situation but mostly we talked about the boy situation. The thing is she reacted exactly the way I had expected her to, very happy for me but also warning me to be a little cautious. She also said I had a perma-grin on my face as I was talking about him.

So many big changes in my life. I can't wait to have goodbye lunches/dinners with all of my friends so that they can see how happy I am now because it's been a long time since I've felt like this.

Losing Touch

I went to a going away picnic today for a friend who is moving to Switzerland next week. I'm super excited for her and wish her all the best of luck on her journey. She and I lived in residence together at University my first two years and we've tried to keep in touch ever since.

Which got me thinking about all of the people that I know from residence that I HAVEN'T kept in touch with. Have our lives just diverged that much since our student days that we no longer have anything to discuss? Was residence really our only common link? Is it worth attempting to reconnect with these people or should I just remember the good times and reflect on that part of my life from time to time?

I may never have answers to these questions. Do you still keep in touch with your friends from college or university? Have you been able to reconnect with anyone you've lost track of over the years?

I need a break

It seems lately that every time I need to make a decision I end up making the wrong one. Especially when it involves other people. I just don't know how to play well with others I guess. I'm trying to make the right choices for me or at least what I think are the right choices, but in the process I'm hurting those around me.

If you are reading this and you feel like I have wronged you in the past 2 weeks, I'm so sorry. I just need some time away from things to straighten out my head a little bit. I'm going out to the farm this weekend to get some good country air and hopefully get a better handle on things.

Enjoy the long weekend!